My Big Brother

The only thing I wanted
Was to feel at home,
The only thing I wanted
Was to be loved more.

I crave for a little support,
For my big brother to help me through,
Just like he stood up forth
When the peers treated me cruel.

But now our family relations
Are full of distance and shades,
Of guilt and agitation
And of neglection and blades.

I miss the times when
He wouldn't let me get hurt and
When he'd walk me down the street
Grasping my tiny hand.

My big brother has his own life now
And I barely see him any more,
And I miss him, but I don't know how
To go back to the way it was before.

The only thing I want
Is to get rid of the pain,
The only thing I want
Is to be loved again.